Gaia Star Codex – N. Trance – Like a stone island in a blue-green sea, N. Trance floats into the dream realms. Her attention is drawn inward as she prepares to lift off. Though her travels know no limits, she is never lost. Her body contains a compass that always point to her destination. N. Trance grants the empowerment of transport. Using this inner capacity, you can explore the cast expanses of existence without ever leaving home. Transport also means reaching an elevated state of being. N. trance shows you that your own body is the doorway to bliss.
Wolf Song Cards – Black Bear – Introspection, Self-Analysis
Animal Messages – Lion – Banish loneliness by reaching out to special friends
“Tawny monarch of the savannah, Lion does not waste her days in needless physical exertion, but conserves energy by sleeping, resting, and companionably lounging. Working long, exhausting hours for the money leaves little time for the pleasures of friendship. Loneliness is spirit-diminishing – designer clothes make poor companions. Lion has padded into your cards to remind you how vital friends and neighbors really are. Reach out to those around you and be open to others.”
Heart of Faerie Oracle – Queen of Bedlam – Responibilities of Partnership / Frustration / Gift of Sanity – Who is the Queen of Bedlam? What is her purpose? It may not be as complicated or extreme as it appears. She is an everyday queen. A queen of day-to-day life – the keeper of the little things that when added together become a madness of sorts. Have you ever been doing something very ordinary, something that you’ve done a thousand times, when suddenly it seems that if you do this particular thing one more time, you’ll go mad? It could be as simple as packing your children’s lunch boxes, sewing a button on your partner’s trousers (again), or cleaning up a mess your dog just made. These are all responsibilities of partnership that must be dealt with over and over again. When the feeling of “I’m going mad” sweeps over you at these times, the Queen of Bedlam has decided to visit again. She is calmly sitting in your kitchen, pulling the petals off the flowers in your vase. She is tearing your kitchen sponge into tiny pieces and cutting the sleeves off your partner’s shirts. She is doing this for you. She comes to take the feelings of total frustration – of just not being able to continue living with any sanity at all – and envelops them in her immense capacity to embrace everyday madness. It is her reason for existing, so give generously of your small neuroses. She’ll take care of them and leave you sane, to face another day.

Yeah, this has actually been a moderately weird week. Monday, there was a tornado on the ground near my parents. I was at the optometrist when the weather reports were talking about it… I don’t know what kind of damage there was, but it’s weird not being there during the tornados.

Also while I was at the optometrist, I was talking to one of the nurses about her daughter possibly having lupus, and another patient started talking to us… He looked sooooo familiar, but I couldn’t immediately place him. So when he comes out, it all the sudden dawns on me… It’s Brad Johnson, the Marlboro Man! Kinda random, but it was cool too.

Tuesday I had to go get the monthly blood drawn, and I guess I took the band aid off before I was completely clotted, because I stretched and ended up with blood all down my arm. That probably wasn’t what the people in traffic next to me wanted to see…

Today I spent the majority of the day working on airbrushing photos for my portfolio. I don’t know which ones I want to use, but I think Taine was going to edit one for me as well.

My sleep schedule is so throwed off. I shouldn’t have fallen asleep at like 8:30pm… but I felt nauseous, so I took phenergan, and it knocked me out. Oh well. I don’t go back to work until May 9th, so I’ve got time to switch it around.

brunetttebomb: nicoll dont panic
brunetttebomb: spare yourself anxiety
brunetttebomb: dont want your lupus to flare up

brunetttebomb: LOL Rachel the lupus has rotted her brain
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: lmao karla ia gree
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: and the aids too karla

Wagtaildynastys: \lupus you still acting sick for your loser friends in here ?

Really? I’m not even online, some jackass (aka Darian) has to email me this, and they’re still talking shit? When did using an incurable illness as an attack on someone become appropriate? And when did lying about illnesses become mature? Who in the fuck uses AIDS as an insult?

Just because you can hide behind a screen to talk shit, doesn’t mean you should start using illnesses as attacks. I don’t want either of your karma. Faking pregnancies, talking shit online… Yeah, you two may talk about me not having a life, but I’m at least honest, and I’ll say everything I’ve said online to someone in person… You two, well… You’re simply trolls. Have fun when /b/ gets ahold of you.

Karaoke last night, which ended with my husband hungover on the couch, and him sleeping it off. So much for him wanting to shoot today lol.

H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i have a baby growing inside me hers died

Yeah. She can fake a pregnancy on AOL. She can sit and talk about how she’s getting drunk, and going to get tattoos, and just generally lie all damn day… for what? What does someone actually gain by doing that? And what human being attacks someone for a miscarriage? That’s sickening.

H0ckeyPrinc3ss: my boyfriend is taking me to dinner tonight
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i told my bf i wanted to hang out downtown deep ellum
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: go walking around on the west end and get a tattoo
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i have 7 tattoos
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: im gonna get my 8th one tonight
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: a big ass dragon on my back
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: the tattoo artist already drew it for me
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i cnat wait to get inked tonight

Except for the small fact that it’s illegal in Texas to get a tattoo while pregnant, according to the release they have you sign at the tattoo shop….
Click here for why it’s not safe

H0ckeyPrinc3ss: im not feelign good
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: feeling
Randomperson8629: AWWWWWW
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: :/
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: its the baby random

She claims she’s a little over 3 weeks along. At 3 weeks, you wouldn’t notice you were pregnant… no morning sickness, no “feeling sick”…

H0ckeyPrinc3ss: nicoll i would never copy your fucked up life bitch
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i dont worship the devil like your crazy ass does
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i would anyone copy butterface’ life
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: i mean come on my life is so much betetr than hers i have a baby on the way a real job and a sexy bf that doesnt cheat on me. she is so patheitc shes a sad person
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: random bc shes obsessed with em
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: me
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: she stalks me constantly
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: she doesnt know when to stop
H0ckeyPrinc3ss: shes harrassed and stalked me for 5 years

Except… she’s copied literally everything about my life. She’s even gone as far as copying the presents that I got my husband for Christmas… who does that? Hell, I even left the chat room that she would frequent to get away from her, and she followed me into the new one. How is that *me* stalking if she’s the one following me around?

Well… I wished for them, and got my ass out and promoted… and now I’m getting them! I had one last night that went awesome, and I have another one tomorrow that should be a lot of fun!

I can’t wait to see all the images. I’m going to be a busy little bee working on those.

I have a photoshoot Wednesday!

I love shooting, and I haven’t had the time to do it recently… but yay!