Daily Draws

Filed under: Daily Draws — Nicoll @ 3:20 am June 26, 2011

Power Tarot – Commitment – You need commitment to focus on your target, take aim, pull back the bow, and then shoot your arrow, knowing you will hit the bull’s-eye with every shot. To hit the bull’s-eye require total commitment of your spiritual and physical being. You need only the commitment to walk down the path through the gateway into your true destiny. It is a process of gathering. You gather your emotions, your mental strength, and your abilities as you would gather sheep. It can be a long process, but your commitment gives you endurance. It is the next step after defining your act of power. Materialize your dreams and begin to live them. Build that magnificent dream lodge within you with total commitment.

Angels Blessing – Anael – Sexuality

Wolf Song – Lynx – Secrets, Truth revealed

Miracle Cards – Meaning in Life – Meaning doesn’t lie in things; meaning lies in us. When we attach value to things that aren’t love – the money, the car, the house – we’re loving things that can’t love us back. We’re searching for meaning in the meaningless, and this will always cause pain.

Crystal Ally – Chrysocolla – Sacred Sounds // Communication / Expression of the sacred / Goddess Energies / Gentleness / Power

Animal Messages – Baboon – In love and declarations of passion, heartfelt communication is the key.
Sublime Baboon, adept of love, wears her heart on her sleeve. Baboon does not pretend. Her passions and shows of affection are genuine, her reactions without artifice, so you may believe the ardent declarations of others. Truthful, heartfelt communication and open expression of feelings are what matter now in your relationship if, like Baboon, you seek lasting love. Hiding your emotions will leave others unsure of your intentions and reluctant to reveal their feelings, which can only lead to misunderstandings and sadness.

GaiaStar Codex – Mojo – Rebirth
Open-eyed and at ease in the fiery grip of transmutation, Mojo is the Phoenix. On his brow turns a spiral, the sign of continuity. Part bird, part rock, part man, he has gone beyond fear. From this place of freedom, he transmits the liberating “We live on.” Mojo’s empowerment is rebirth. He shows that every apparent ending sets loose the seed of the next beginning. The thread of your existence is unbroken. You can endure the heat of change with great equanimity when this knowledge becomes a certainty in your heart. It sets you free to be new again and again.

Love Tarot – Temperance – Temperance is one of the Tarot’s cardinal virtue cards, and she advocates balance and reason in love. A winged angel stands by a lush riverbank. With perfect poise she decants water from one cup to another while one foot touches the river’s water and the other rests upon the earth. Temperance reveals the need for attention to detail, and perhaps the patience of an angel, to keep your love life in balance.
Be mindful of a situation which, if left unattended, may result in a misunderstanding. If a relationship is volatile just now, try not to let your emotions run away with you. Maintain your equilibrium by listening to your heart and head in equal measure.

The Faeries’ Oracle – The Fee Lion – The Fee Lion looks out of his card accusingly, reminding us of things undone, promises unkept, and duties unfulfilled. He says that we can’t expect to have things go right when we are trailing so much unfinished business behind us. Dragging that stuff around tires us, it uses up energy that we need for other things. If we would just take care of these things that cause so much mental (and sometimes physical) clutter, we would suddenly find that we have a lot more energy at our disposal to do the things that we really want to do – and probably much more cooperation from others as well. He especially suggests that we take care of the little things that matter to others. We will feel so much better when we have done that, and so will he.

The Heart of Faerie Oracle – The Boy – Adventure / Freedom / Youth – The eternal Boy is like Peter Pan, the boy who never grows up. What is important about the Boy? We are told that we inevitably grow up, grow old, and die. And we do. At least part of us does. But there is another part of us that, like Peter Pan, stays eternally young, and not just young, but “boy” young. Masculine young. The part of us that wants to seek adventure, live dangerously, live heroically, and die gloriously. In Faerie, the part of us that is the eternal boy can roam free forever. Male of female – we all need to acknowledge the “boy” within us and let him run free. If we do no more than say, “Go fly, have adventures,” we have done enough. When the Boy turns up, take a minute to find the boy inside of you. He may be hiding = boys are good at that = but coax him out into the light, say hello, and let him fly. He’ll return to you, and when he does, oh what tales he’ll have to tell!

Daily Draws

Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicoll @ 3:59 am June 23, 2011

Archangels – Phanuel – Hope

Power Deck – Aspiration – Aspiration stimulates power. It is your aim spiritually and physically in the world and involves the totality of your being. Without the balance between the physical and the spiritual, aspiration is a hollow accomplishment. It is like a spirit lodge at the dome of which are your ceremonies and rituals. But the spirit lodge must have a strong foundation of capability, trust of those around you, and responsibility. Aspiration is what builds the spirit lodge of power. It is the architect of your accomplishments and sits at the feet of power, as the deer stands before the remnants of an acient and powerful civilization. Keep your heart open, kind, and loving, so that the energy of the universe can move freely through you. It is difficult to aspire without judgement, but judgement limits you and puts a fence around your consciousness. Give much consideration to all your choices in life and a free flow to your process of aspiration.

Animal Messages – Frog – Adapt and survive by accepting the inevitable and seizing potential.
Mistress of diversity, Frog conforms seamlessly and ingeniously to her environment. If she has leaped into your cards, your strategy must also be to adapt and survive. Sometimes life moves inexorably on and nothing we can do will change events or alter fate. Frog counsels that for now it is wise to accept the inevitable while maximizing even the tiniest of possible advantages. That way you grow strong in the face of adversity and may influence events when opportunity arises.

Miracle Cards – Commitment – Commitment in a relationship means commitment to the process of mutual understanding and forgiveness – no matter how many conversations it takes, or how uncomfortable those conversations might sometimes be.

Wolf Song – Red Headed Woodpecker – Rationality, self-reliance

Crystal Ally – Amazonite – Personal truth

Love Tarot – The Lovers – The Lovers represent true love. Cupid shoots an arrow toward an earthly paradise where a man and woman stand naked together. They echo Adam and Eve in Eden, yet their love is very much of this world. The trees represent the Tree of Knowledge, which bore the apple eaten by Eve, and the Tree of Life. This duality is expressed by Gemini, the twins, The Lovers’ astrological sign. They bring you beauty, love and a decision.
You can deepen your bond with your partner and experience true bliss. However, you may feel divided loyalties as a third party intervenes; older relatives may compete for your attention. Rather than take the easiest option to keep others happy, you may need to put your relationship first.

GaiaStar Codex – Emerge – Peaceful, penetrating, wisdom-laden. Emerge equipts you to make the leap. It is both summary and absolutely open-ended. Use it when you are ready to take off. The strong tribal energy in the manzanita background anchors and potentiates the many crystalline beings who leap out from the inside diamond. Laser-light playing on the surface of the stones speaks of the alchemical wedding of technology and geology that catalyzes our emerging planet. Ride the Emerge current out of the crystal cave into the light of complete appearance. You are a shining avatar of the heralded world. It’s time to let yourself be seen.

Faerie’s Oracle – The Singer of Transfiguration – The Singer of Transfiguration tells us that we have been through the gate, we have passed through the initiation process, and we have reached a new way of being, reflecting deep transformation within ourselves. Things will never again be what they once were. Things will never been seen in the same way by us, and this is a good thing! This Singer’s joyful, passionate, bright blaze of color heralds a time of fulfillment and accomplishment. As with the other Singers, the power and joy of this one radiates especially strongly to the things and beings symbolized by the cards around it. Like the reborn, renewed phoenix, this Singer is aflame with vibrant, expanded life.
This card in a reading signifies the joy of success after a time of struggle. A new way of life has been accepted and is being integrated. A sense of inner peace is growing. The struggle has all been worth it. This is a time of consolidation and joy, and is both a reward for past achievements and a time of preparation for the next climb up the path.

Heart of Faerie Oracle – The Lady of Song – Listening/Stillness/Harmony
Look at the Lady of Song. Can you tell that she is listening attentively to the great song that the universe sings? She is so quiet, so very still, she can hear the most distant starts singing in harmony with out own planet. To hear this song is to become profoundly connected to the universe. She is here to remind you to listen. If you draw her in a reading, just sit still and listen for a moment. What can you hear? Of course you hear the ordinary sounds of life that you may find comforting or annoying, but what else do you hear? Listen to the stillness beyond the noise. In the sillness you will hear the song. Open your heart to it, and you will begin to understand that you are as much a part of the song as anything else in the universe. Raise your voice and sing with the Lady of Song and feel that connection.

So weird

Filed under: Life,Stupid Bitches — Nicoll @ 2:42 am June 20, 2011

Happy belated fathers day to all the dads!!!

I’m back to working far far far too much. I really am a workaholic. In the last 7 days, I’ve worked 85 hours… It’s amazing, I love my job… But I’ll never get used to being the only competent female in the data center.

This past week, the other female technician didn’t realize that you could have multiple Linux kernels in grub. Ok, to be honest… She actually asked what grub was… But…

She also replaced the RAM in a server… She used ECC when she needed ECC Reg, and tried saying it was the same thing. /facepalm

The good thing is that she makes me look fantastic without me trying. I’m studying for my RHCE, and apparently that makes me a goddess for even knowing what that is.

In other news… I’ve realized that I have people around me that care far more about my appearance than I do. I’ll be 28 this year… I’ve lived my entire life being content with not being a horribly disfigured troll. I never put a huge emphasis on my looks… Because honestly, I wasn’t comfortable enough to let my looks pay the bills. It’s just strange that so many other people seem to be concerned with mine. I’m used to the idiot trolls online that will rip a girl apart for any little flaw… I survived years on IRC :) What I don’t get though is the people that take the time out to come to my blog, dig through my pictures, and leave comments on every one or the pictures and blog posts, alternating between telling me I’m ugly, fat, anorexic, or I have a big head. Apparently I have a mustache, unibrow and I’m manly looking as well… I’ll really never get it lol. I guess I could understand if I was openly saying I was hot, or if I held some sort of conceited view about myself… But meh, not really. I’m me. I think I’m relatively small, I’m in decent shape, and I’m not an ogre. Some people find me attractive, some don’t. Some people seem to think that I’m fat, some people seem to think I’m too skinny. The funniest part is that I really don’t care because I have a husband that thinks I’m beautiful, and I never thought I was all that pretty to begin with. You’d think that being that blunt about it would give people pause… But no, it doesn’t… They seem to think that the most important thing for me is to be that hottest girl ever, because I apparently need someone to sleep with. Or… Something. I dunno… Apparently every female that has a picture online is a whore looking for sex… Forget the fact that the majority of companies post employee directories now… Logic doesn’t work on the Internet :)

Aaaaaaannnnndd last… I’m no longer in remission 。・°°・(>_<)・°°・。
It sucks, but I knew there was a pretty good chance of this happening. I’m back on a low dose of immunosuppressants, they are trying me on a new form of cellcept that is supposed to be more mild on my stomach. Its definitely more mild on my stomach… But that’s mainly because anytime I eat, I get heartburn so bad I stop eating. I have another doctors appointment soon, so they’ll probably try me on something else. Boo. Oh well.

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Rachel Kemp Lies Far Too Much

Filed under: Uncategorized — Nicoll @ 12:59 am June 2, 2011

LiveLaughL0ve211: I DONT NEED A WIG I HAVE REAL HAIR
LiveLaughL0ve211: DOWN TO MY ASS
LiveLaughL0ve211: JEALOUS GIRLS
gaultier doll: LOL so you just admitted taht your pics are old
gaultier doll: if your hair was down to your ass… none of your pictures have hair that long
LiveLaughL0ve211: YOU HAVENT SEEN MY NEW PICS AND UR NOT GOING TOO EITHER
gaultier doll: I don’t care to see your pictures
LiveLaughL0ve211: YES U DO
gaultier doll: I’m just pointing out that you just busted yourself in yet another lie
LiveLaughL0ve211: THEN FKING SHUT UP THEN
LiveLaughL0ve211: I DID WHEN?
LiveLaughL0ve211: I HAVENT LIED
gaultier doll: you claim that the pics on your profile are recent… and then claimed that your hair is down to your ass
LiveLaughL0ve211: UM IT IS
gaultier doll: your pictures do not have hair that long
LiveLaughL0ve211: IM NOT LYING
LiveLaughL0ve211: MY NEW PICS DO U DUMBBITCH
LiveLaughL0ve211: MY GOD
LiveLaughL0ve211: LEARN TO READ PSYCHO
gaultier doll: so either those pictures aren’t recent, which is busting you in a lie… or your hair isn’t that long
LiveLaughL0ve211: OK SO WHAT
gaultier doll: so you just busted yourself in a lie
LiveLaughL0ve211: MOVE ON
LiveLaughL0ve211: UM OK
LiveLaughL0ve211: WHATEVER PSYCHO

LiveLaughL0ve211: that bithc post my pics on her site
LiveLaughL0ve211: she is psycho
gaultier doll: i’ve never posted your pictures on my site
gaultier doll: ever

How can someone blatantly contradict themselves, and then continue lying when it’s pointed out that everyone knows they’re lying?