As of today, I am no longer taking my medication. My doctors can yell and scream all they want about it… I’m tired of the constant medication. I’m tired of the way the medications make me feel. I don’t want to “maintain” the current level of health… If I’m not getting better, why maintain this? So… I’m done. If I get sick, I get sick. I’ve made my choice.

I have two photoshoots coming up. One on January 28th (I think), and one in February… both are pinup shoots. Should be fun… but I think I’m going to start winding down on my modeling. It was fun while it lasted, but I’m just not all that into it anymore.

I got a new piercing and tattoo over the weekend as well.

The bruising is healing pretty quickly… I didn’t realize just how easily I bruised until I got the tattoo. Oh well, it’s healing well, and I love it.

I also got my monroe (lip) pierced the same day… I’ve had it done before, but took it out a long time ago. I love love love it… it’s so different. Hopefully it’ll heal quickly as well.

I’ve been doing a lot of needlepoint to keep myself occupied at work when we’re slow. I also bought some new beads, so I’ll start making jewelry again as well. Who knows, maybe I’ll end up making some one off pieces to sell.

Yeah, this has actually been a moderately weird week. Monday, there was a tornado on the ground near my parents. I was at the optometrist when the weather reports were talking about it… I don’t know what kind of damage there was, but it’s weird not being there during the tornados.

Also while I was at the optometrist, I was talking to one of the nurses about her daughter possibly having lupus, and another patient started talking to us… He looked sooooo familiar, but I couldn’t immediately place him. So when he comes out, it all the sudden dawns on me… It’s Brad Johnson, the Marlboro Man! Kinda random, but it was cool too.

Tuesday I had to go get the monthly blood drawn, and I guess I took the band aid off before I was completely clotted, because I stretched and ended up with blood all down my arm. That probably wasn’t what the people in traffic next to me wanted to see…

Today I spent the majority of the day working on airbrushing photos for my portfolio. I don’t know which ones I want to use, but I think Taine was going to edit one for me as well.

My sleep schedule is so throwed off. I shouldn’t have fallen asleep at like 8:30pm… but I felt nauseous, so I took phenergan, and it knocked me out. Oh well. I don’t go back to work until May 9th, so I’ve got time to switch it around.

So I had my nephrologist appointment yesterday – all labs look fantastic, and he’s decreasing my dose of cellcept to 500mg a day… that’s down from the 3 grams a day that I was taking back in November! SOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m not happy about weighing 118 lbs. That means I gained like 6 lbs in 2 weeks. He said that could be normal, and that it’s probably water weight, because I should be on my period right now… but since I stop my period with my birth control, I’m still getting the symptoms, just not actually bleeding. Bah… oh well. I still fit all my clothes.